when i walk inside the party - girls on me
Seriously, why couldn’t he get a grip on this? Why did everything feel so loud with her? Even the smallest touches - her shoulder bumping his, his hip brushing hers - felt like his brain shut off and he couldn’t hear anything, see anything, feel anything but that. Her skin against his. But then her thoughts pulled him back again, and he swallowed the breath that caught in his throat, careful to keep his eyes dead ahead.
She thought of when he’d kissed her neck, brushed his lips up that elegant curve of muscle. Swept a soft breath along her jawline. That was all it took to set his heart rate soaring, to know she thought back on it too, to hear her think of it again now. Did she want that? They were so close. It would be so easy. Was that his thought, or hers? It would be so easy. So good.
But he promised he wouldn’t, didn’t he? That was how he messed up their day yesterday.
He turned his head a little to look at her. He couldn’t help but want to watch her face when she thought of him. Did she know he heard everything, not just what she spoke to him? Would that bother her? She thought of what they’d done and how she’d liked it. She had, hadn’t she? But they shouldn’t do it anymore, right? He shouldn’t have done it in the first place. Didn’t regret it though, not really, not when it had felt so good for the both of them. Only that it had cut their day short. And that Dad wouldn’t like it, of course. And Kylin. He had said the wrong thing, though, and took her home instead. He would try to remember to keep his distance from now on.
We can start with just walking around and exploring, seeing all the new sights, and just decide when we get there, okay?
His gaze softened and he nodded as she opened her eyes and turned to him with a shy little smile, tapping under his chin like she always did. He sighed into it and nuzzled back as she thought to him again. And what we do doesn’t matter, anyhow. I’m with you, that’s good enough for me. His wing rested over her shoulder as she leaned into him, pressed her face to his neck, and he squeezed her in a light hug. Me too.
I love you, Khari. Thanks for going exploring with me. It’s my favorite thing, especially when you’re with me.
His heart tripped and tumbled at those words, but he tried to play it cool. Wasn’t anything, right? Of course she loved him, they were family. Wasn’t sure he should say it back, though. Would it mean something different? He wasn’t sure. But exploring with her was one of his favorite things too, and he squeezed her again and pressed just a light kiss to her neck. Mine too. We have a lot of fun together, huh? Time for a distraction, maybe.
Hey, look! He gave her shoulder a little bump and gestured ahead of them, just a little into the forest where a tree had fallen from a rough storm. Maybe there was another further up? Think we can jump that? We could have another race again? Or we can just walk, of course. Or stop and rest if you want a little break. Whatever you want. Today is yours. He turned to nuzzle the top of her nose with his and leave her another little kiss, grey eyes opening to meet hers. Those should be okay still, right? Probably.