could i use you as a warning sign - kagerus

[Kagerus]

kagerus

and in my dreams, i kissed your lips a thousand times

He sputters his own curses as we awaken in the sea, drenched both by the waters and by the sodden weight of my retreating nightmare. I wonder idly at what he must be thinking now, as the sensation of drowning fades from his powerful lungs. Truth be told in regards to my curiosity, I am rather without care for what he has to say or think; our nighttime gallivanting has left me exhausted, physically and emotionally; I ought to be curled up with Solace, and instead I am here, proving sweet nothings to a stallion who ultimately has no effect in my life over all.

Funny, the things we do in the dead of night; and funny, how we perceive them come morning.

He speaks again, those clever eyes rising to meet mine. Evenly, I hold them; they know much that I do not, though most of it I assume to be more pleasant than mine, considering his words. I don't smile at his suggestion of what I might prefer, but I do give a small dip of my antlered head in acknowledgement. I probably would, after all is said and done.

The extension of his being towards mine does awaken me somewhat to the reality of our existence, and my neck bends to watch as he brushes against me with seeming innocence. A soft churr vibrates through my chest, perhaps tickling his nose as it lingers against me; but the moment passes, and I find myself more attune to the roll of the ocean and the beating of our hearts, not in tandem but not far off either. In a strange way, I want to thank him for the gesture; but I contain myself, instead just blinking curiously and with a quiet contentedness towards him.

Do you want to forget that? He swallows with the words; unsure, perhaps, of what he is offering.

But I do not mind; for I too am unsure of my own answer. Scared of my own shadow you might say.

In the end, after minutes spent in silence as our eyes peruse the soft, constant rolls of the ocean drifting ever towards us, I decide. My legs splash in the water, disrupting the smooth symphony of our watery orchestra; I am turning away from him, back towards home, and back towards the one who saved me that day. My nightmare is not real; she does not wish I had died that day.

"Thank you for the offer Ivar, but no." I smile tiredly towards him, though the expression is kind. "Though there is pain, there is also value in remembering where I have come from, and how far I have come from that same place." I take a step forward, but then think better of it. My next step takes me right to his side. Blinking slowly, I reach out my own muzzle, pressing it's soft whiskers to the reptilian scales he sports. It is an innocent gesture; perhaps, a thanks.

"Stay as long as you'd like, my friend," I murmur, pulling away. "Hyaline is a Sanctuary - treat her as such." Heaving myself forward, I exit the ocean, water dropping from me in sheets. It won't belong until I'm with my love again; until a black, restful sleep reclaims my being.

@[Ivar] <3 I loved this thread.