[open] Uncertainty

[Roseen]

I want to swim away but don't know how
Sometimes it feels just like I'm falling in the ocean

 Roseen thought she was doing well for once. She was managing to talk to another horse without awkwardly going silent. Though she still had trouble speaking correctly, and it was mostly Leilan that kept the conversation going, she was surprised she managed to make it this far. Little did she know just how much more complex this experience would be for her. 


Another stallion approached the two in a very lively way. He spoke Leilan’s name and called him buddy, to which Leilan gave a questioning look. Obviously the two knew each other, but Roseen could see that they both had different views on their relationship just by Leilan’s reaction. But then, the other stallion turned his attention on her. She felt her heart stop, and it took all she had to not shrink back under his gaze, yet she still averted her eyes. Though she did manage to force a smile, she wasn’t sure if it looked as friendly as she wanted it to. “H-hi,” she stuttered her greeting after learning the stallion’s own name, and asked for hers, “I-I’m R-Roseen.” She went silent, and he spoke again, though this time her ears perked a little and her eyes moved towards him. She was interested to hear that Arthas was from one of the kingdoms Leilan spoke of. Silently she questioned what Loess was like, but she couldn’t seem to gather the courage to ask. All she could manage was a softer smile, and a light nod as he suggested she at least visit his kingdom.

By now Roseen had a lot on her mind. From meeting a random stranger to meeting another, then learning that there were kingdoms, she began to think more about her future again. Making friends was all well and good, but these kingdoms seemed more pressing. They could be a home to her; this was certainly a path she needed to thoroughly think upon. She needed to know all of them, what they were like and what kind of life they could offer her. Lost in her own thoughts, she hadn’t even noticed when Leilan started to speak. She snapped out of her thinking, her eyes fixing on Leilan and blinking swiftly. She caught him just as he began speaking to her. “I-I’d love to see it sometime,” she replied with a sheepish smile, not really sure how else to reply. Apparently Loess was quite the sight if both stallions thought she should visit, and a home with a view was something she certainly wasn’t against. Places with a view usually had lots of vegetation to offer, and comfortable surroundings, which made her think she just might have little worry of finding food, and could actually make herself at home.

But just a pretty view wasn’t enough. She needed to know more about Loess before making any decisions, especially one as important as calling it home. She needed to know what the other horses were like. What was their structure? How welcoming and friendly were they? Were there any dangers? If so, what were they? Did they have any stallions worth taking as a mate? Wait, scratch that last one.

This was when another horse approached. This time it was a mare, and a very beautiful one, too. Actually, Roseen found herself surrounded by three horses that were very attractive. Obviously Leilan was handsome, and Arthas also had some good looks, something she began to realized more and more as she looked over him. And now there was a beautiful mare standing before her, enough to make Roseen jealous. This time she actually took a step back, overwhelmed by the sudden appearance of yet another stranger. And it didn’t help that this stranger was so much prettier than her. She felt so plain in the presence of those three. So ordinary; a mare with nothing special about her. 

“R-Roseen,” she greeted weakly to the mare, dipping her head a little as her eyes became downcast, “I-it’s a pleasure to m-meet you.” Hearing that Breckin was from another kingdom certainly interested the sooty bay, but now her mind was whirling with so much it became hard for her to concentrate on anything at all. Her breathing became uneven, her heart pounded in her ears, and she started to get a little fidgety with anxiety. She was on the verge of freaking out. Roseen wasn’t used to being around so many horses at once, especially so suddenly. She didn’t know what to say, what to do nor how to react or respond to their words. They all seemed kind, and perhaps willing to help her, so she couldn’t just excuse herself and leave. However, at the same time she was surprisingly excited. There were three horses before her; this was her chance to make not just one, but three friends! But something was holding her back and keeping her from speaking. It took her breath from her, made it difficult to speak, and filled her heart and mind with worries and possibilities of how it could all go wrong.

Fear controlled her.

ROSEEN

a nomad