10-01-2021, 01:55 PM
kensley
i swore the days were over of courting empty dreams
Kensley is not made of greatness.
And he knows beyond the shadow of a doubt that Jamie’s power has nothing at all to do with him and everything to do with his mother.
The dark magician he has loved so fiercely for what feels like his entire life.
He knows that he has been given these things he does not deserve: the ability to shatter and the gift (if it could even be considered a gift) of delving into the thoughts of others. And now this, the fog that curls itself around him and becomes him, the ability to manipulate the weather.
There is no reason for any of it.
Fate’s idea of a joke, perhaps. Because he has never been anything but plain with a wanderer’s heart, (not the only thing he inherited from his father but the thing he resents the most).
But she is a stronger thing than he is. She is a thing made for greatness and he suspects that any further argument would do little to convince her.
(This is surely a gift he does not deserve, her opinion of him.)
Fog curls around his feet, glowing faintly. (He cannot manipulate this anymore, not the way he could ever so briefly in a way that made him wonder if his son was responsible for this, too.) And he considers her question about the White Magician. He remembers the way his son’s rage had rattled the canyon walls. He remembers how much he’d destroyed when Beyza had taken their girls and gone.
He shakes his head and the answer comes out even more mournful than he intends, “no.”
He glances toward the horizon. “I haven’t seen her in years either.” Neither the magician nor the girls she bore. And it occurs to him that he misses them fiercely. (They are not his only grandchildren, he knows that, but they are the first he ever got close to.)
And he knows beyond the shadow of a doubt that Jamie’s power has nothing at all to do with him and everything to do with his mother.
The dark magician he has loved so fiercely for what feels like his entire life.
He knows that he has been given these things he does not deserve: the ability to shatter and the gift (if it could even be considered a gift) of delving into the thoughts of others. And now this, the fog that curls itself around him and becomes him, the ability to manipulate the weather.
There is no reason for any of it.
Fate’s idea of a joke, perhaps. Because he has never been anything but plain with a wanderer’s heart, (not the only thing he inherited from his father but the thing he resents the most).
But she is a stronger thing than he is. She is a thing made for greatness and he suspects that any further argument would do little to convince her.
(This is surely a gift he does not deserve, her opinion of him.)
Fog curls around his feet, glowing faintly. (He cannot manipulate this anymore, not the way he could ever so briefly in a way that made him wonder if his son was responsible for this, too.) And he considers her question about the White Magician. He remembers the way his son’s rage had rattled the canyon walls. He remembers how much he’d destroyed when Beyza had taken their girls and gone.
He shakes his head and the answer comes out even more mournful than he intends, “no.”
He glances toward the horizon. “I haven’t seen her in years either.” Neither the magician nor the girls she bore. And it occurs to him that he misses them fiercely. (They are not his only grandchildren, he knows that, but they are the first he ever got close to.)
i worshipped at the altar of losing everything
@Aela