Darkness is needed for light to shine - any

[Nuage]

so come on, let it go. just let it be.
why don't you be you and i'll be me?

Nuage had thought he would be safe by only giving his lover’s nickname. Spoken like that, without knowing the full name, it could pass through as an unisex name, perhaps even female. In his head it had sounded like a perfect plan. But it was the easy way out too, something that stirs something unpleasant in his stomach. His night with Nihlus had been perfect.

Soon his smile turns dreamy. A sad kind of dreamy. Like so often Nuage finds his thoughts straying away. Not only re-living that one wonderful night together, but from there also imagining how good their future could be. That was if Nihlus would come back for him. But he promised, right? And thus Nu would keep waiting for Nih to return.

A fantasy that is soon ruined by the silver bay roan stallion. He starts of nice, pulling Nuage from his dream world like that, then the gentle fall becomes a stumble. Turns out Leilan knows Nihlus – and oops, there he goes again; flickering invisible and visible for a couple of times. Oh shit shit shit, the endless stream of curses in his mind starts off. He pales visibly, staring at Leilan shocked, before tearing his gaze away towards the water. His lithe form starts to tremble ever so slightly, and Nuage does not know where to look.

His lips part, then close, only to part again as his mind races in circles as he tries to come up with something to say. It is then that Leilan’s other words settle in. This time Nuage sharply turns his head, wide eyes that are quick to become teary. Nihlus wouldn’t come back? He wanders? Was that why Nihlus had yet to show himself?

Again his lips part to say something, but before he can get himself to speak, a chocked sound escapes past them and tears threating to slip from his eyes. Only then Nuage tears his gaze away from Leilan, the trembling of his body getting worse  as he stares at his glowing reflection. ”He... I-is he not co-coming back?"

But no. Nihlus promised. Claimed Nuage as his too, though the dark bay male hadn’t answered Nuage’s question if Nihlus would be his too. Maybe that had been answer enough. Maybe Nihlus was indeed not coming back.

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