I'll never be as good as I'd like to be [Any] - Printable Version +- Beqanna (https://beqanna.com/forum) +-- Forum: OOC (https://beqanna.com/forum/forumdisplay.php?fid=24) +--- Forum: Archive (https://beqanna.com/forum/forumdisplay.php?fid=81) +---- Forum: Lands (https://beqanna.com/forum/forumdisplay.php?fid=98) +----- Forum: Tephra (https://beqanna.com/forum/forumdisplay.php?fid=85) +----- Thread: I'll never be as good as I'd like to be [Any] (/showthread.php?tid=15849) |
I'll never be as good as I'd like to be [Any] - Ledger - 07-25-2017 Bound for trouble from the start There is a tension that clings to him, follows him wherever he goes. While things seem somewhat better with Ellyse, there is a heaviness in his heart. A fear that he does not have hers. Visions of her and Dahmer become his new nightmare, the new reason he avoids sleep. He can’t bare to see them together, the happy family. It makes him sick, makes his blood scream and beat fist’s against his veins. Jealousy rules him. Ledger RE: I'll never be as good as I'd like to be [Any] - Dahmer - 07-30-2017 CURIOSITY KILLED THE CAT & SATISFACTION BROUGHT HIM BACK Usually content - happy, even - to remain volcano side, today. He passes by the cove where Ellyse had birthed their child, and then the sandier shoreline where the briny ocean laps at sand instead of rigid, rocky outcroppings. Tephra is diverse, always offering something new and intriguing for those who call it home, and the thoroughbred's blue eyes do their best to drink in everything that is offered to him. Dahmer moves leisurely, his hooves rhythmic against the soft loam but the sound is lost beneath the whistling winds and the ebbing flow of ocean water. He keeps his feathered wings pressed gently to his sleek sides, though the wind catches his feathers and rustles them on occasion. He crests a particularly large outcropping and comes to rest on its shale plateau, icy blue eyes falling upon the one-eyed flaxen that he'd met only once before, tucked tightly against Ellyse's side. Dahmer's neutral expression wavers for just a moment before flashing an obligatory and polite smile to Ledger, his dark head nodding to greet him. "Sorry, didn't mean to disturb you," the winged beast offers to Ellyse's friend-lover-whatever he was. His blue eyes watch the flaxen chestnut curiously, wondering if he should retreat from Ledger and continue this "let's pretend he doesn't exist" game they've been playing, but Dahmer had begun to smell the flaxen's scent more and more intermingling with Ellyse's, and if this other stallion is going to be around Smoak an increasing amount... The black stallion sighs in exasperation before cocking a hip and settling his gaze upon Ledger's one eye. "If you make Ellyse happy, I am not here to stand in your way. But I ask that you don't take this situation out on Smoak." Dahmer @[Ledger] RE: I'll never be as good as I'd like to be [Any] - Ledger - 08-17-2017 Bound for trouble from the start The sound of someone approaching breaks his dark thoughts and he freezes with anticipation. Perhaps it is Ellyse and there is a glimmer of hope in the depth of his flecked eye. It is another cruel trick of fate that the figure rounding the corner is not her but him. Instantly his face falls, ears flattening and obscured by a thick mass of flaxen hair. Oh wonderful, just what he needs. To have Dahmer thrown in his face once more, salt rubbed into an already bleeding wound. Ledger RE: I'll never be as good as I'd like to be [Any] - Dahmer - 08-19-2017 CURIOSITY KILLED THE CAT & SATISFACTION BROUGHT HIM BACK Despite his original apprehension, a small part of Dahmer is pleased that he has happened upon Ledger today. He makes sure to keep his approach nonthreatening and even ignores the way the one-eyed stallion's ears immediately hide within his flaxen mane. He halts a comfortable distance away (he'd rather not pretend they are friends, nor even impartial acquaintances), though close enough that the tumultuous shoreline does not drown out their words entirely. The black thoroughbred doesn't expect Ledger to acknowledge his apology, nor does it really matter, but it gives the former councilman a segue into a real conversation with him. At first, Dahmer is unsure whether or not Ledger has heard him. Or, decided to ignore him. But then, his brilliant blue eyes see the change in Ledger's muzzle, the way sharp teeth drop from beneath his lip. Dahmer's own ears flick so that they face backwards, but he keeps them at half-mast in an indication of disapproval. He has known a shifter or two, so the change is less fearsome than it is startling - it's the fangs that keep Dahmer on edge now, even as Ledger grows large and turns to an icy white. "Don't mistake my request for an accusation," he spits back at the other stallion, his blue eyes hard as they glare at Ledger, "would you not ask the same?" Dahmer falls silent and loosens his muscles, which had grown taut during his acquaintance's shift of appearance. His flared nostrils flutter at a sudden gust of wind that catches feathered wings and brushes his dark forelock across his face, but his icy gaze never falters. Dahmer @[Ledger] RE: I'll never be as good as I'd like to be [Any] - Ledger - 08-29-2017 Bound for trouble from the start Everything about Dahmer pricks at him, itches under his skin. It’s hard to distinguish if he’s actually irritated by the stallion or if it’s the bear that simply likes to stir the pot. There is a moment when he thinks of resisting the beast within him and then simply does not. The fangs remain, flaxen mane melting into the thick snowy fur until the stallion disappears and only the bear remains. Ledger I'm sorry he's not usually this mean <3 RE: I'll never be as good as I'd like to be [Any] - Dahmer - 09-04-2017 CURIOSITY KILLED THE CAT & SATISFACTION BROUGHT HIM BACK Years have come and gone since Dahmer had been required to submit himself to a situation such as this one. He'd once met Amaterasu in Darkhaven and had pledged his allegiance to her father, Tabor, in order to acquire her for the Subway and its Army, and when one of his generals had grown fond of her, Dahmer had been at the brunt of his foul attitude over a simple lack of communication. Admittedly, this triangle between Ledger, Ellyse, and himself is more complicated (and more dangerous, with the addition of magical beings), but the anger that he has attempted to suppress up to this point still feels the same, hot and simmering. Ledger grows more, his frame transforming into something unfamiliar, at least in respect to his coloration, but the bear's short snout and musky scent make Dahmer's fight-or-flight reaction kick into overdrive. His nostrils flare instinctively and he takes a stride backwards, his own dark wings unfurled as the bear sits back on its haunches, ready to turn and use the edge of their rocky plateau as his point of takeoff. Nevermind the fact that he's yet to use his feathered appendages. With his ears still hidden in his dark tousled mane, the black beast glares into the hard golden eyes of bear-Ledger. He expects the question, and while the vast majority of him wants to tell the other stallion that the answer does not concern him, the black beast had made the decision to do what he could to move passed this hostile stalemate. "I do not love her," he offers grudgingly to the other, "But I cannot say that I do not have feelings for her. But what happened between Ellyse and I was a result of our mourning the end of different relationships, and nothing more." Dahmer @[Ledger] ♥ You don't have to apologize! He's great! RE: I'll never be as good as I'd like to be [Any] - Ledger - 09-05-2017 Bound for trouble from the start The polar bear remains, unnaturally still as he waits for the winged stallion’s reply. He’s made Dahmer nervous and something within him is pleased as he watches those feathery wings unfurl apprehensively. Pleased that he could stir fear in anyone let alone someone that may be an enemy. It’s a power he’s never felt before, to be in control. To possibly be dangerous. After being the brunt of such evil and cruelty, to finally be on the other side was so much better. Ledger |