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The firestarters always get the burns; Vulgaris - Ilma - 09-28-2018 Ilma And there's a lesson waiting to be learned the firestarters always get the burns and the good guys never get the girl
With spring well settled in Beqanna, life seems to settle in a known rhythm slowly as well. The tumults of leaderships changing and positions being reclaimed can't bother her as long as they don't threaten her - in the case of Loess and Sylva, that honestly is just something she still needs to figure out. Or maybe have someone else figure out. Like Solace. Or Wolfbane himself. They still owe Hyaline now, although not for the best reasons. But perhaps something can be worked out. If not, at least they've made sure that they know Hyaline is not that easily messed with, she figures. But she'll retreat. It's worse enough that this situation existed in the first place. and shooting stars cannot fix the world @[vulgaris] at long last, there's a starter (: RE: The firestarters always get the burns; Vulgaris - vulgaris - 09-28-2018 Vulgaris
The birth of his daughter has invoked a certain kind of peace within him, cleansed a bit of the dark cloud normally hanging overhead. The fresh scars across his face and shoulders may suggest otherwise, but an easy sort of smile remains firmly rooted to his face. Today Leliana has given in to Adna’s pleas to go meet other children, leaving Vulgaris to wander from his small family for the first time. Already it feels strange to be apart from them but he knows he can’t shadow them every day. They need their space and he has to give it to them, begrudging as he may be.
He sees her from the corner of his eye and he turns his gray head to watch her for a moment as his memory searches for her face. Ilma, that’s right. She’d been so certain he meant to bring harm to her before. He calls out to her before approaching so as not to surprise the poor girl, worrying she may still be fearful of others. Vulgaris comes to stand beside her with a reasonable distance between them, then leans his head to watch the river as well. He doesn’t realize that perhaps she is only lost in thoughts and worries as he tries to see whatever she sees. The woes of more reasonable creatures elude him entirely. “Are we waiting for something?” he asks as he glances at her. He speaks softly, careful not to disturb whatever may lurk beneath the waters. Vulgaris lifts his head when he’s certain there’s nothing coming to meet them and turns to face her, now worrying that she may not even recognize him. Not everyone has a knack for names and faces as he has, after all. “How’ve you been?” And then he smiles, rows of sharp teeth glimmering warmly despite their harsh appearance. The expression reaches his eyes and the sincerity is hopefully evident. " ancient language, speak through fingers. the awful edges where you end and i begin. " RE: The firestarters always get the burns; Vulgaris - Ilma - 09-28-2018 Ilma And there's a lesson waiting to be learned the firestarters always get the burns and the good guys never get the girl
And when all else fails - there is a Loessian coming her way. It’s the scaly-toothy male she met once before in the forest; near autumn, she’d chastised herself for going there alone, thinking what had happened last time that had resulted in Llowell - but Vulgaris hadn’t made such a move, and she was less fearful of him now, knowing he had thought that she was afraid he would eat her. It seemed silly in retrospect, but at least she would never forget the meeting. and shooting stars cannot fix the world @[vulgaris] RE: The firestarters always get the burns; Vulgaris - vulgaris - 09-28-2018 Vulgaris
Only for problems to solve themselves. He laughs softly at the answer and the breath causes the river to tremble briefly before returning to its usual flow. Vulgaris understands that all too well but he’s not one to ever admit it. Instead he lets the moment pass as she declines to fully answer his question. Perhaps another time, when they’re better friends and she feels safe confiding her frustrations in him. That’s usually his ultimate goal, after all, to be trusted despite the reputation a serpent normally has.
He’s already forgotten the trouble Lepis has stirred up, drowned it out with the mess he made with himself and Kagerus instead. Maybe the queen never admitted to being the one to give him these scars? How mysterious he must seem, then, to everyone but Leli. Of course he’d told her when he came home dripping blood and tired from his fight. She was the safe place he could turn to and lay all his secrets to rest. Which brings him to her question. The smile spreads wider across his face and he lifts his chin a bit when his pride swells through him. “Leliana and I have had our first child,” he explains. Already he can only think of Adna as the first, as though she isn’t their only baby to date. To have more seems so inevitable to him that he has no desire to say she is their ‘only child’. “Her name is Adna. She’s got her mother’s laugh.” He could go on and on, really, but he tries to constrain himself to only the most important facts. Vulgaris thinks to ask her if she has any children of his own but he decides against it. His other offspring are a bit of a sore spot for him and so he says nothing of them, for now. It may be the same for her and he would hate to ruin the foundation of their friendship so soon. “I think you would like Leli. She’s the opposite of me, basically.” Vulgaris laughs at his own joke despite the truth of it. Leliana is kind and soft, everything that he could never be in this life. But that’s why he loves her so much. " ancient language, speak through fingers. the awful edges where you end and i begin. " RE: The firestarters always get the burns; Vulgaris - Ilma - 10-04-2018 Ilma And there's a lesson waiting to be learned the firestarters always get the burns and the good guys never get the girl
Ilma doesn’t open up in the way he’d hoped, maybe that is so. Her wannabe-friend is not the real problem however; she doesn’t know where to begin. All these things are such a tangled mess in her head that she can’t find what she’s looking for, and she can’t ask of him to help unwind it. And maybe there’s the thing that, if he’s loyal to his kingdom, if she told him all that plagues her mind, he should tell Wolfbane like a good citizen - and she’d rather get a feel of the striped king herself than be talked about. She doesn’t know what Lepis might have said, but it can’t be good. She wonders what Bane thinks of all this. and shooting stars cannot fix the world @[vulgaris] RE: The firestarters always get the burns; Vulgaris - vulgaris - 10-05-2018 Vulgaris
Although Ilma doesn’t consider the serpent to be a friend, he views her as someone to be trusted and protected. If he knew of her troubles, he would most likely try to make her enemies pay their debt in blood, much as he does for Leliana or Wolfbane. But she is a creature of peace and tranquility even in her troubled times, he thinks, so he doesn’t expect such a request of him.
He notices the smile on her face when he speaks and he wonders if he’s rambling. Vulgaris hardly ever opens up about the vulnerable pieces of him and so the limit is a mystery to him. But she’s as kind as always, waiting patiently until he’s done before she speaks again. A smile dawns across his face as he nods in response to her invitation to visit. It might be strange for him to enter Hyaline on friendly terms, but he supposes it could be dismissed when his intentions are purely social. But then she offers her opinion of him and his smile fades. She doesn’t know the things he’s done or the lies he’s told to get what he wants out of this world. Ilma is a dove amongst ravens, perfectly white and infinitely greater than the rest of them. But he doesn’t confess his sins or reveal the singularity of the darkness within him. Instead, he brushes her compliment away with a shrug of his great shoulders. “Maybe I just don’t see what you see,” he says with a half-hearted laugh. His self loathing threatens to engulf him and so he changes the subject instead. “But I really would like to come visit your home some time. I need to get out more.” And then he’s smiling again. Vulgaris knows he spends too much of his time within his own home, remaining in the comfort in Leliana and Wolfbane’s company. There is no room for growth while he continues to reinforce the bonds he’s already established. " ancient language, speak through fingers. the awful edges where you end and i begin. " RE: The firestarters always get the burns; Vulgaris - Ilma - 10-06-2018 Ilma And there's a lesson waiting to be learned the firestarters always get the burns and the good guys never get the girl
Politics should never get in the way of friendships, and neither should teeth. Yet they seem to have had that rough start because of both, and she has let it. But new opportunities arise, and when he smiles in regard to her invitation to visit, she assumes he will, in his own time, and shooting stars cannot fix the world @[vulgaris] xD RE: The firestarters always get the burns; Vulgaris - vulgaris - 10-08-2018 Vulgaris
Vulgaris has never taken goals such as Hyaline’s seriously. He believes his darkness is one with who he is and always will be, even while he basks in the light of Leliana’s love. The brighter the light the darker the shadows, after all. But for now he is more focused on Ilma and her subtle kindness as she reaffirms her beliefs about who he is at his core. And maybe she’s right, maybe there is something truly good at the center of his being. It would explain his rage whenever punishment is not dealt to those even worse than him.
“I’d like to bring Adna to Hyaline. A girl like her has potential to do great things so it’s important for her to learn politics young,” he says as he stares off at nothing, imagining what sort of person his daughter might grow to be. Larva had retired from that sort of life by the time his younger children were born and so Vulgaris was never properly socialized. To see him beside his eldest sister, Darling, it’s hard to imagine they share the same parents. She is eloquence and grace given physical shape, she thinks. “I have to be home in time to tell her goodnight, though, so I have to head home now.” The words are casual in his voice and it almost seems strange to hear him speak them. But this is his life now; the hunter has become the head of a small family and he takes the responsibilities as seriously as those given to him by Wolfbane. He offers Ilma another sincere smile before he bids her farewell and heads for Loess. Now he just has to convince Leliana to let him take Adna to Hyaline for a day or so. " ancient language, speak through fingers. the awful edges where you end and i begin. " RE: The firestarters always get the burns; Vulgaris - Ilma - 10-12-2018 Ilma And there's a lesson waiting to be learned the firestarters always get the burns and the good guys never get the girl
The white woman smiles a little, though she doesn't comment on his being good-or-not any further. Truth is, most people are mixes of what's good and what's considered awful, and there's reasons for one thing to come out more than the other sometimes. A threat to herself or her family, for instance, would be met with a much harsher version of herself than Vulgaris right now. and shooting stars cannot fix the world @[vulgaris] Haha. I guess this ends this thread though? |