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I'd give you my sunshine - Avelina - 12-29-2020 ![]()
@[Narya] RE: I'd give you my sunshine - Narya - 01-05-2021 i've been sleeping so long in a twenty-year dark night and now i see daylight She isn’t sure when it started to happen. In the beginning she had thought she was imagining it. The voices were like whispers, coming to her most often when she was asleep. So soft at first, just enough to stir her awake, but then they would be gone. Then she started hearing them during the day, too. Still quiet, in such a way that she wasn't sure if she had actually heard something or if her anxiety was inventing things. Eventually it got louder, loud enough that she coud no longer ignore it. When she had asked her mother Anonya had only suggested that perhaps she had inherited her grandfather's mind reading, but the tone in which she had said it – like she was reluctant to admit her daughter shared the same blood as Dhumin – made her wish for another explanation. Until she was entirely alone, and the voices still came, and she knew there were no other minds nearby to be read. Until she was faced with the idea that there was something inexplicably wrong, and she finds herself stealing away to the river, searching for a place to be alone. It's why when she sees a figure up ahead she almost turns back. She does not recognize her at first, and the last thing Narya felt like doing was trying to make small talk with a stranger. But something in the other girl's mannerisms strikes her as familiar, and she stares at her, long and hard from her place on the bank, before a wave of recognition washes over her. “Ava?” she calls out gently, stepping through the snow. Her eyes are drawn to the few fireflies that glow from within her mane, and having already forgotten her own changes – the way her body had darkened to black until it bled down into a dark red, to the ruby of her hooves and the gems that adorned her body – and not realizing that the girl may not recognize her. For a moment, she almost forgets about the strange voices that whispered in her mind. narya ![]() @[Avelina] RE: I'd give you my sunshine - Avelina - 01-14-2021 ![]()
@[Narya] RE: I'd give you my sunshine - Narya - 01-24-2021 i've been sleeping so long in a twenty-year dark night and now i see daylight The genuine warmth and delight that Avelina greets her with is almost enough to banish her anxiety and insecurities entirely away. The whispers in her mind are further dulled and replaced by her friend’s sweet voice instead, and Narya finds herself clinging to the clarity of it like a lifeline. Her cheeks flush warm at the compliment, having nearly forgotten that she looked entirely different from the last time. Her dark eyes are cast downward as she grapples with how to deal with it—she was often alone, and therefore not accustomed to compliments in the least. “Thank you,” she finally manages to say, but she is afraid the words are so quiet and her stare still so focused on the ground that it would sound insincere. With a tilt of her chin, she lifts her eyes to hers, the tentative smile still settling on her dark lips. “I don’t really know what happened. I just woke up one day and suddenly I was different.” But there is a strange weight to her words, and try as she might she cannot fight the worry that rises up in her throat. Her jaw tightens with the effort to push the feeling away, even though the indistinct murmuring has returned to her mind. She shakes her head, trying to force them away, but when she answers Ava's question she cannot help but to sound distracted. “I’ve been fine, mostly.” There is a tense pause, then, as her tongue seems to tingle with the want to spill all of her troubles. Biting it back she instead forces a bright smile, letting her gaze focus on the young mare. “And how have you been? I see you’ve gathered some new friends,” her smile grows more relaxed as she gestures to the fireflies nestled in her mane, thinking she did not recall her having those before. narya ![]() @[Avelina] RE: I'd give you my sunshine - Avelina - 02-11-2021 ![]()
@[Narya] RE: I'd give you my sunshine - Narya - 02-15-2021 i've been sleeping so long in a twenty-year dark night and now i see daylight Does she want to talk about it? There are times that she thinks that she does. In those rare moments of quiet, the ones that are now so few and far between, she thinks that perhaps simply giving a voice to all of her fears and anxieties might help put her mind at ease. She could tell Ava everything; how it wasn’t just her appearance that was different, but her mind too. What is she going to do, though, when Ava tries to tell her it is all in her head? She can already imagine that look of sympathy—the kind that borders on pity—on her friend’s face, the kind that is laced with worry. She will tell her that perhaps she is just tired, that the mind can play cruel tricks when it is overworked and fatigued, and Narya will smile and nod in agreement even though the voices keep whispering in her head. Maybe the secret is better off buried in her chest, hidden from the world. “They’re lovely,” she tells her, her eyes again on the fireflies. She likes how delicate they are, and the way they glow so softly against the darkness of Ava’s mane. Her own rubies and gold were pretty things, but her added beauty had brought with it a curse, too, and she finds herself wondering if Ava’s fireflies were not all that they seemed to be, either. Maybe all things came at a price, and everyone just hid it from the world. “Something else changed,” she finds herself saying finally in answer to her question, but again she does not allow herself to meet her eyes. “Not….not just the way that I look.” She doesn’t know how to phrase it — not without sounding like she has lost touch with reality. She hesitates, her tongue trying to find the right words. “I hear things. Voices. And I don’t know where they’re coming from.” narya ![]() @[Avelina] RE: I'd give you my sunshine - Avelina - 02-21-2021 ![]()
@[Narya] RE: I'd give you my sunshine - Narya - 03-14-2021 i've been sleeping so long in a twenty-year dark night and now i see daylight She is surprised at first that Avelina doesn’t seem put off by what she tells her, but then she is grateful. And though relief floods her, she remains hesitant. She is afraid that oversharing will push acceptance and curiosity into something that feels uncomfortable. She is afraid if she reveals the full depth of the chaos in her mind that Ava will find it strange enough that she would lose interest in being her friend, and Narya was not in the position to be pushing friends away. But she answers the questions nevertheless, shaking her head at the first one. “No, when I told my mother about it that is what she thought, too. She said my grandfather could read minds.” Anonya did not speak of Dhumin much, and it had surprised her that she had relinquished even that small piece of information. But it had not been lost on Narya how the words sounded taut coming from her mother’s usually soft mouth; as if the very act of having to form a thought about her father and speak it into being was torture. She did not press her for more details. She finds herself shifting nervously at the mention of the afterlife. She isn’t sure if it’s just a coincidence or if she was that transparent—or if she was that stupid that everyone else could see what was happening and it was only her that took so long to figure it out. “If the voices are from someone that is dead, though,” she begins, choosing her words carefully, “what would they want with me?” She shakes her head, her dark forelock rippling across her the ruby stones that dot her face. “I...I can’t help them.” narya ![]() @[Avelina] |