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so obviously desperate, rosebay - lumineer - 02-28-2021 Lumineer
He has adapted to his grief. It is not in his nature to dwell, Lumineer. He has soothed himself with the belief that the darkness must be temporary and that his family will someday be restored. He has convinced himself, too, that that day will come soon. Perhaps he is naive, but this is the only way he can weather this storm of crippling darkness. He casts no light as he flies, stretching the wings he so rarely uses. He favors the wolf over the wings and they ache with neglect as he soars over the forest on his way to the meadow, the eclipse at his back. He lands roughly, out of practice, stumbling over an uneven patch of terrain bathed in shadow but he feels no glimmer of self-consciousness. There is no tell-tale rush of heat in his cheeks as he regains his balance and folds his wings against his sides again. He has never been all that bothered about what others might think of him. He wonders about the friends he has met along the way, how they have adapted to this darkness. He thinks of the girl who’d slid out of the river as if the frigid temperature had no effect on her at all and wonders if she has remained just as unaffected by the darkness. He thinks of the winged mare and her companion and how she has fared since they parted ways. He worries, too, about his family and how so many of them have been reduced to bones. He is lost to his thoughts and he wanders aimlessly through the dead meadow-grass, hunger panging against his ribcage as he goes. He does not want to, but he cannot help but entertain the thought of what might happen to them if the light does not return. THROUGH THE DARKNESS TO THE DAWN @[rosebay] RE: so obviously desperate, rosebay - rosebay - 02-28-2021 Rosebay In no small way, Rosebay loves the darkness. but in all chaos, there is calculation @[lumineer] RE: so obviously desperate, rosebay - lumineer - 02-28-2021 Lumineer
There is nothing peaceful about it, not really, and he thinks he’d give anything to feel the heat of the sun slant against his back. He aches for a mouthful of sweet meadow-grass, something to fill his belly until he’s heavy and sluggish. He squirms beneath the unfamiliar weight of his sorrow. (Perhaps he has not become as accustomed to as he’d thought.) He is distracted by these thoughts when he hears the call for help. He lifts his head so abruptly that a few wilted flowers tumble out of his mane and land in the dust at his feet. He searches wildly through the dark for the source of the sound but cannot immediately find it. He moves carefully, lest he stumble over the distressed caller in the shadows. And then the call comes again, quieter this time, but he is able to discern the direction from whence it came. He moves slow, head low, eyes narrowed until he can barely make out the crumpled figure. And then he hurries, dropping to his knees beside them. Always so eager to help. Isn’t it a wonder that the heart fits in that chest at all? He sucks in a sharp breath as he makes out the steady stream of blood as it streaks down the shoulder. “Are you all right?” he asks. Such a foolish thing to ask when the stranger is quite obviously not all right. It is only when he seeks out the face that he realizes this is not a stranger at all, but someone he had been thinking about only moments before. “Rosebay!” he gasps, reaching out to touch her neck gently. “What can I do to help?” he murmurs. He possesses no useful magic here save for perhaps the slightly antibacterial properties of the wolf’s saliva. THROUGH THE DARKNESS TO THE DAWN @[rosebay] RE: so obviously desperate, rosebay - rosebay - 03-20-2021 Rosebay It is always so difficult to pretend like this—to press herself into the mold of someone meek and weak, of someone who needs the assistance of others. But she reminds herself of the grand scheme, of the purpose behind it all, and so she continues to lie on the ground. She continues to lie down, feeling the dirt dig against the curves of her ivory armor, the shadows creep against the thin sides of herself, pulling down. She lets her voice fade slowly, eyes closing as she hears the sound of him coming closer, hiding her smile. but in all chaos, there is calculation @[lumineer] RE: so obviously desperate, rosebay - lumineer - 03-29-2021 Lumineer
He forgets his sorrow. He forgets everything but the panic that wraps itself around his windpipe like a vise. Her voice is weak, little more than a whisper as she utters his name. How is it that something spoken so softly can slip between his ribs like a blade? He grimaces, his brow furrowed so deeply that it aches. He doesn’t know how to help her. He doesn’t even know any healers and it would take him too long to get to them even if he did. His heart thunders something deafening in his head, which has gone suddenly empty. He drops to his knees beside her, nudging her as gently as he can, though his panic makes him clumsy and he staggers to his feet again. “I’m sorry,” he tells her, “I’m so sorry.” His tongue feels thick in his mouth. This is his fault. It’s all his fault, though he hadn’t thought that she might be looking for him. How could he when he hadn’t thought he’d even registered on her radar? Certainly she had more interesting things to think about than a silly colt she’d met who didn’t know how to keep secrets. “Oh, Rosebay,” he sighs mournfully, noticing the way she froths at the mouth. He has no choice but to step back and shift into the wolf. The scruffy thing shot through with gold, flowers gathered around the ears. “This is the only way I can help you, I’m sorry.” He creeps closer, careful, aware that the wolf is a predator and the horse is prey. He dips his canine head, sucks in a sharp breath and begins to lap at the blood oozing from her shoulder, cleaning the wound. The poison hits his gut like a thousand blades and he immediately recoils, yelping in pain. He cowers, whimpering, blind with agony. The canine stomach turns in a way that the equine stomach cannot and his back arches as he couches and retches against the pain. THROUGH THE DARKNESS TO THE DAWN @[rosebay] RE: so obviously desperate, rosebay - rosebay - 05-21-2021 Rosebay She is pleased with the way he sacrifices himself. The eager way that he begins to earnestly clean her shoulder, the toxins slipping from her bloodstream innocently and over his tongue. She takes a shuddering breath, letting it end with a whimper as she closes her pale eyes, feeling her body go slack. There is nothing but the sound of broken breathing and his retching, the silence echoing around them. but in all chaos, there is calculation @[Lumineer] RE: so obviously desperate, rosebay - lumineer - 05-26-2021 Lumineer
The agony. Oh, the agony! It devours him from the inside. It pulses in his gut, rakes clean the soft column of his throat. Here, the wolf hits its knees as its vision goes soft at the edges. And Lumineer, he is so certain that he will die here, that the two of them will perish here together and he’s sorry that he could not save her from the poison that took her but perhaps there will be some comfort in knowing it took him, too. There is blood, he sees that. (In this moment, he thinks mournfully of his parents, his siblings. Did he tell them each he loved them? Did he assume that they knew it already?) But he cannot dwell on it. No, he cannot keep a singular thought in his head with how terribly it hurts. He writhes and spasms as it takes hold of him. Yes, he will die here and he’s so sorry for it. So the wolf lies down to die, coughing and heaving. And then, as he relaxes into his fate, it goes. Almost like a physical thing leaving him, like he can feel it retreat. Like his deciding to let it take him has forced it to change its mind. Only when it is all gone does he draw in a shaky, hesitant breath. (Will his body reject this, too?) His stomach turns but he does not retch. Her voice comes swimming to him out of the shadows and he lifts his weary head, scrambling to his feet. He has no balance, no control over those canine limbs as he staggers back to her side. “Are you all right?” he asks her, always more concerned for others. “We’re in the meadow,” he says, hanging his weary head. So heavy. So horribly tired. “How do you feel?” THROUGH THE DARKNESS TO THE DAWN @[rosebay] RE: so obviously desperate, rosebay - rosebay - 05-28-2021 Rosebay There was joy to be had in watching the way her poison affects him. In watching the way that it nearly takes him to the knees—nearly takes him out completely. It’s all she can do to not purr with pleasure, to keep her face lax and the emotion bleeding out of it. To listen as he walks right to the brink of death, the place where she had pushed him, and then walks slowly away from it—with her help, as well. you and I nursing on a poison that never stung @[lumineer] RE: so obviously desperate, rosebay - lumineer - 05-31-2021
His head pulses with fog, confusion. But she is okay and that is what matters. It doesn’t matter that his stomach still heaves with whatever poison she’d pushed through him or that his own muscles tremble with the agony that had seized him. She is okay. She is okay. She tries to rise and he staggers away on shaky legs, his heart clenching in a painful fist as she crashes back down again. He stumbles back to her side, pressing his cold nose to her shoulder in hopes of soothing her. As if he is capable. As if there is anything in him that is capable of offering her any reprieve at all. His vision still blurs at the edges but he tries for a shaky smile all the same. Because she is alive, she is okay. They have both clawed their way out of the jaws of death and that is what matters. It will be several minutes before he has the strength to shift back into his equine form, so for now he remains the wolf, its great furred head laid across her shoulder. Had he been looking for her? He must have been. Otherwise how could he have found her? “Of course I was,” he says and he means it. He believes it. It is not a lie because he means it with his whole heart. “I would not have let you die alone out here,” he tells her, gently nudging her nose with his muzzle. Through the darkness to the dawn @[rosebay] RE: so obviously desperate, rosebay - rosebay - 06-09-2021 Rosebay She feels a rush of annoyance up her throat as he staggers away and then back toward her—as his legs threaten to crumble beneath him. It nearly rises to her mouth as a growl. As a showing of teeth and a forceful push of poison down the column of his neck, but she fights it down. Reminds herself that she is patient, that she is kind, and she has taught him enough lessons today—so long as he remembers them. you and I nursing on a poison that never stung @[lumineer] |