and some by virtue fall; any

[Shaytan]

I was looking for a breath of life
another taste of divine rush

I think that Kushiel probably misunderstands Shaytan. He is not boring and he is not un-intimidating. She just wants to lay down, so she does. More often than not, Shay is a simple creature and the easiest explanation for her actions is usually the right one. Don’t quote me on that, though. I’m sure she still has some surprises up her polka-dotted sleeves. For now, she wants to lie down - so she simply lies down, perfectly content to warm her backside by the eternal fire. Shaytan probably would have been happy to let the conversation die down, but no - Kushiel continues.

If she were completely self aware about how others perceived her, she would be surprised that her fellow Chamberlings didn’t ask that question sooner, or more frequently. One ear flickers towards him and she snorts, because they have it all wrong. While, yes, Belgarath was an abysmal father and she didn’t have any friends growing up (they all thought she was weird - and hell, can you blame them?), she woudln’t necessarily call it ‘messed up.’ “I don’t eat the bunnies. I just drink their blood. Sometimes.” She pauses and puts her thinking face on. “I don’t think so. It was… fine.” In the grand scheme of things, it wasn’t traumatizing like the toybox or this last very realistic nightmare. Belgarath was a piece of cake, and Navarro, in all his creepiness, was just a blip on her radar now.  

And that's that. She doesn't want to say any more on the matter. Not with his judgey tone of voice ringing in her ears.

Shaytan

so many lives
so many pairs of eyes

[do you want to end this here and maybe pick up a new thread later? ]