07-14-2016, 09:05 PM
"Evil requires no reason."
"Isn't it though? Isn't that what Karma is? The Light and the Dark being balanced?" And I agree with her, what she is saying, about the risk of being closer to us. About the bad things getting a little bigger to deal with us, the more powerful we are. I agree with all of that and understand. I realize that not everything can be fixed, but for Ryss, for Tycho I damn well would try. I'd bleed and give them my life if it was required. Would I willingly want to die? Would I sacrifice myself without something in return? Hell no. I want to be there for them. I want to be there for the rest of their lives until they are ....god... nothing more than bones in the ground if I have to let it go that far.
If I have to bury Ryss...I know I will be placing my heart in the ground with her.
My ears flicker as she speaks again and I smile slightly. Again I agree even if I don't like it. I had been there, I do know. Ryss had been my light. She had been the one to guide me there, closer to the light on that fine line of darkness and light. Where they merge and become shadows. So while I'm not wholly good...I'm not wholly evil anymore either. I don't play the games I used to play, with whatever on the line because I could.
I hadn't been broken yet. That would be an entirely new experience and I find myself curious to see how it would be for me. Would I burn? Or would I turn the world to ice?
I accept her hug, even I might squirm a little bit under the touch. I understood exactly where Tycho got his no touching stance. And while I don't mind Quark's hug, it makes me..uncomfortable. We are family, but she is only mine...while Tycho and Ryss are MINE. Affections aren't something...shit...I'm still learning. So while I want to pull away, I don't. I force myself to curl myself around her in response and release a short breath of relief when she pulls away. I smile slightly.
She also called me son.
No one has done that before.
Feelings for another time, for emotions and thoughts that stir.
I smile, turning to look way from her again. Turning to look out across our home and down where our family was resting. I could find them, feel myself mentally drawn to the thumping of Ryss's heart and the steady gait of Tycho as he explored. They would be the only things that keep me here, that keep me from absolutely losing myself.
However...I pause with her next words. My eyes glow a bit with a sudden burning of anger. I have to coil it within myself, tamp it down so I don't burn her or anything else. I cannot meet her eyes, not quite yet and I concentrate on the gentle thumping of my love's heart for a long moment. Finally when I turn to her. "If I am not there...who will put her back together? Who will watch them? Who will keep them as safe as they can be here?" I pause. "You. Of course you will. But you are only one against so many, with so many behind you to protect. Something will slip through. Something will slip through regardless of how careful we are. Balance. Life always craves Balance." I continue to meet her gaze. "I'm not fucking going anywhere."
If I have to bury Ryss...I know I will be placing my heart in the ground with her.
My ears flicker as she speaks again and I smile slightly. Again I agree even if I don't like it. I had been there, I do know. Ryss had been my light. She had been the one to guide me there, closer to the light on that fine line of darkness and light. Where they merge and become shadows. So while I'm not wholly good...I'm not wholly evil anymore either. I don't play the games I used to play, with whatever on the line because I could.
I hadn't been broken yet. That would be an entirely new experience and I find myself curious to see how it would be for me. Would I burn? Or would I turn the world to ice?
I accept her hug, even I might squirm a little bit under the touch. I understood exactly where Tycho got his no touching stance. And while I don't mind Quark's hug, it makes me..uncomfortable. We are family, but she is only mine...while Tycho and Ryss are MINE. Affections aren't something...shit...I'm still learning. So while I want to pull away, I don't. I force myself to curl myself around her in response and release a short breath of relief when she pulls away. I smile slightly.
She also called me son.
No one has done that before.
Feelings for another time, for emotions and thoughts that stir.
I smile, turning to look way from her again. Turning to look out across our home and down where our family was resting. I could find them, feel myself mentally drawn to the thumping of Ryss's heart and the steady gait of Tycho as he explored. They would be the only things that keep me here, that keep me from absolutely losing myself.
However...I pause with her next words. My eyes glow a bit with a sudden burning of anger. I have to coil it within myself, tamp it down so I don't burn her or anything else. I cannot meet her eyes, not quite yet and I concentrate on the gentle thumping of my love's heart for a long moment. Finally when I turn to her. "If I am not there...who will put her back together? Who will watch them? Who will keep them as safe as they can be here?" I pause. "You. Of course you will. But you are only one against so many, with so many behind you to protect. Something will slip through. Something will slip through regardless of how careful we are. Balance. Life always craves Balance." I continue to meet her gaze. "I'm not fucking going anywhere."
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