04-22-2018, 11:22 AM
Looking back to that particular day last winter, she wonders why she had allowed Kagerus to guide her away from Ischia. Part of her knows why and how it had happened, and also why she had allowed it to happen. Kylin had so naturally followed the piebald’s guide, unable to make her own decisions and instead relying on others to make them for her. She still thinks that Kagerus has done her a favour. She had needed to be away in order to see what all did have in life, instead of focussing on all she lost.
The inability to decide for herself, to set her own guide and live her own life, had turned her into a prisoner. Not in the direct meaning of the word, she had been allowed to go and come whenever and wherever her heart desired, but Kylin had simply been unable to get herself to it. Instead she had been watching Hyaline’s lake – which is still beautiful as ever – and had been longing for it. So close, and yet so far away too. Like that she’d spend the spring, all alone in the cave, and by now, most of the summer has passed too.
That long had it taken Kylin to get herself together. She’d hated it to be alone, but at the same time she had not known how to connect with others. Probably because she hadn’t opened herself to them too. She simply was too scared. What if they left her too?
All this time there has only been one that had not left her. Not that he was to consider hers, but he had opened his heart and family and welcomed her in. It had been Kylin who had left him, in a failed attempt to find whatever she had been looking for in Hyaline. Now the lavender woman knows how blind she had been. All she ever wanted, was right here in Ischia. It had been right underneath her nose all the time.
She returns to Ischia in almost the same state as she’d left it. Physically she is not better off, but neither does she look worse. Her frame just slightly too thin, and because of it het coat is dull. Mentally she is better. He hazel eyes are no longer dull, instead they are bright and full of life.
Her loud whinny is carried by the wind, across the water towards the beach. Kylin is coming home.
@[Neo]
Hope it makes up for the wait!
The inability to decide for herself, to set her own guide and live her own life, had turned her into a prisoner. Not in the direct meaning of the word, she had been allowed to go and come whenever and wherever her heart desired, but Kylin had simply been unable to get herself to it. Instead she had been watching Hyaline’s lake – which is still beautiful as ever – and had been longing for it. So close, and yet so far away too. Like that she’d spend the spring, all alone in the cave, and by now, most of the summer has passed too.
That long had it taken Kylin to get herself together. She’d hated it to be alone, but at the same time she had not known how to connect with others. Probably because she hadn’t opened herself to them too. She simply was too scared. What if they left her too?
All this time there has only been one that had not left her. Not that he was to consider hers, but he had opened his heart and family and welcomed her in. It had been Kylin who had left him, in a failed attempt to find whatever she had been looking for in Hyaline. Now the lavender woman knows how blind she had been. All she ever wanted, was right here in Ischia. It had been right underneath her nose all the time.
She returns to Ischia in almost the same state as she’d left it. Physically she is not better off, but neither does she look worse. Her frame just slightly too thin, and because of it het coat is dull. Mentally she is better. He hazel eyes are no longer dull, instead they are bright and full of life.
Her loud whinny is carried by the wind, across the water towards the beach. Kylin is coming home.
@[Neo]
Hope it makes up for the wait!