06-01-2018, 04:15 PM
so I base mine off of random things at times, but like many say, they're usually bits of my personality magnified and combined with other inspirations here and there. traton, in particular, is a manifestation of a lot of feelings related to the aftermath of my abusive ex. not usually the wild ones, the crying and the drama; moreso the times after some of the wounds have healed but the scar tissue is still there. jaded, suspicious, but trying to get back to a place of stability. attempts at feeling connected to the world again, but still not quite anchored. conflict between feeling lonely or craving physical affection, yet also being repulsed by everyone. it's a weird place to be in and having a character work through some of those same vibes helps.
really, dealing with these feelings is what gave me the desire to return to rpgs, as writing really helps me work it out. poor traton is just my punching bag, in that regard.
aither I intend to be more of a fun character for myself- I enjoy playing a really dark sort of fellow, and I intend him to be honey flavored venom. my sarcasm, an aloofness I don't possess (but it's fun to pretend). also he might be my punching bag for my rage against manipulative people, but don't tell him.
gallia is basically manic phase kuji except innocent and probably not going to buy $200 of garbage from china at 3am. it's fun on the high side. sweet, optimistic, but more substantial than I tend to make these (at least until the mood stabilizers kick in and I morph her around a bit). I also want to draw on the amazonian lore for her and have her grow to be a strong little redhead
and starfyre, I haven't decided. I usually don't until I play them for a bit- aither and gallia already had personalities floating in my head before they existed. aesthetics feel like starry nights barefoot in the yard, but aesthetics don't tell the whole story... and as inclined as I am to make a trite shy moon girl, I think I'll get bored of that too quickly. pagan queen? we'll see haha.
as for individual posts, it's a pretty wild variation... sometimes it's feelings, sometimes it's things at work, sometimes it's staring at my cat and trying to imagine what she's dreaming about.
really, dealing with these feelings is what gave me the desire to return to rpgs, as writing really helps me work it out. poor traton is just my punching bag, in that regard.
aither I intend to be more of a fun character for myself- I enjoy playing a really dark sort of fellow, and I intend him to be honey flavored venom. my sarcasm, an aloofness I don't possess (but it's fun to pretend). also he might be my punching bag for my rage against manipulative people, but don't tell him.
gallia is basically manic phase kuji except innocent and probably not going to buy $200 of garbage from china at 3am. it's fun on the high side. sweet, optimistic, but more substantial than I tend to make these (at least until the mood stabilizers kick in and I morph her around a bit). I also want to draw on the amazonian lore for her and have her grow to be a strong little redhead
and starfyre, I haven't decided. I usually don't until I play them for a bit- aither and gallia already had personalities floating in my head before they existed. aesthetics feel like starry nights barefoot in the yard, but aesthetics don't tell the whole story... and as inclined as I am to make a trite shy moon girl, I think I'll get bored of that too quickly. pagan queen? we'll see haha.
as for individual posts, it's a pretty wild variation... sometimes it's feelings, sometimes it's things at work, sometimes it's staring at my cat and trying to imagine what she's dreaming about.