and let me crawl inside your veins. I'll build a wall, give you a ball and chain.
She can feel herself beginning to relax. She can feel the tension and fear and sorrow slowly begin to fade, at least for now. She has grown so used to them fighting, so used to them being on the verge of an explosion and so used to that fear that she just lost him forever that she doesn’t know how to accept this newfound armistice. And she was so tired of trying to claw her way through the walls she had built around her heart, so tired of fighting her way through the bricks she had laid herself. This serenity that was trying to wrap around her was like waking up to realize that he could just open the gate and let her out.
He could save her from herself, if she would just let him.
The feel of his heart quivering in her chest makes her jaw tighten, and she leans into him. She shakes her head, staring at him with something that is a mix of disbelief and adoration. “You deserve the world, did you know that?” She doesn’t know if she can give it to him; she doesn’t know if she could be everything that he needed her to be so that he no longer felt like he wasn’t enough, and to erase all the damage she had caused. “Do you know what I thought when I first met you?” She asks him when the thoughts of their first meeting flash in his mind, and she cannot help but to laugh quietly at the memory. “I knew from the moment I saw you that you were too good for me. Even at that young of an age, I knew that you were better than I could ever dream of being, and that I was exactly who you should never be with.”
Coiling herself tighter around him, if at all even physically possible, her lips find his jaw again. “But I’ve always been selfish, and I knew I could never let you go.” She could have walked away from him that day. She could have left him and let him live his life, and maybe spared him all the hurt and heartache that came with loving her. “I just wanted to see what it was like, to have you be mine.” Her lips leave a trail of kisses along his jaw, and then his cheek, and then the groove of his throat and up near his ear where she stops to whisper, low and sweet, “And once I found out...that was it for me. I was, and still am, completely and absolutely yours.” She weaves herself through the thoughts in his mind again, heat racing across her skin at the feel of his mouth against her, and the wanting ache in her voice is undeniable when she says into his neck, “And now I’m just wondering why you’re resisting how badly you want me.”
starsin
it’s not like me to be so mean. you’re all I wanted.
( just let me hold you Like a hostage. )
@[Ophanim]
