03-19-2017, 03:00 PM
I missed the sound of her approaching footsteps, too lost in grief and doubt and pain to pay attention to my surroundings. Her voice is my first clue, and by then it’s too late to paste on a smile and pretend nothing is wrong. Any hope I might have had to the contrary is dashed when I turn to meet her eyes, shining with sympathy. I could curse my carelessness, expecting the Meadow of all places to be empty enough for me to let my guard down, but what good would it do?
With a sad little smile, I shrug and duck my head, buying a moment to get myself under control. “It’s alright,” I murmur, almost whisper-quiet. “My own fault for not paying more attention to where I am.” And to who’s around.
Touched by her offer of help, I look up, meeting her soft hazel eyes. “Thank you, but I don’t think...I don’t think there’s really anything you can do, though I appreciate the offer. I...I think I made a terrible mistake, one I can’t fix or take back. It’s just...it’s just weighing heavily on me right now. Maybe it’s just the time of year, you know? Coming around again and reminding me. I’ll be okay. It’s sweet of you to offer, though.”
With a sad little smile, I shrug and duck my head, buying a moment to get myself under control. “It’s alright,” I murmur, almost whisper-quiet. “My own fault for not paying more attention to where I am.” And to who’s around.
Touched by her offer of help, I look up, meeting her soft hazel eyes. “Thank you, but I don’t think...I don’t think there’s really anything you can do, though I appreciate the offer. I...I think I made a terrible mistake, one I can’t fix or take back. It’s just...it’s just weighing heavily on me right now. Maybe it’s just the time of year, you know? Coming around again and reminding me. I’ll be okay. It’s sweet of you to offer, though.”