THE FEELING WAS ALWAYS TOO MUCH FOR ME /
IT ALWAYS CAME TOO STRONG /
I WANTED TO GET IT RIGHT SO BADLY /
THAT I ALWAYS GOT IT WRONG /
There is always something for Lilliana to worry about. Most days, there is a line of concern etched upon her red brow as the slender woman treads the Taigan trails. She worries about her children and the Forest that she calls home. She worries about where Lethia had vanished and she worries about the cool civility that she and Leilan keep. There is Brazen who grows sicker by the day and Warden who wraps himself with anguish. Neverwhere is never far from her thoughts and then there is Elena (who she wonders for, always).
Lilli worries far too much and far too often.
But she presses a kiss into the forehead of sweet Rosey who is eager to be off, already anticipating a visit from her father. Oren had gone off with Nashua, bubbling over like a stream after the spring thaw. When both of her children are gone and after a long look passes between Lilliana and her eldest, she slips between the shadows to go to Nerine. Her healing is gone but Lilli still intends to offer her warmth to Brazen on what promises to be another bright but bitter winter day on the moors. The chestnut mare shivers just thinking about the chill.
The Taigan follows an old hoof path North and her mind is already dancing along the ledges and cliffs of Nerine.
It's another reminder of how far Lilliana has traveled in this lifetime (has it only been one?)
When the trees start to fall away, the flame-marked emerges from a small copse that reveals the purple glow of @[Izora Lethia]. Some time has passed since she has last seen the buckskin Matriarch (and Lilliana doesn't know that Lethia had heard the words that passed between her and Leilan). If Lethy had approached Lilli the season before, her reaction might have been different. It had been anger that greeted the Freyr when the pair had returned from attempting to drown Pangea. Her blue eyes sweep over Lethy and when they are satisfied that the buckskin isn't harmed or sick, Lilliana lifts her refined head to address her fellow Councilmember.
"We've been worried about you," Lilli says first. That truth comes out in a plume of silver smoke that glitters in the winter sunshine before it evaporates. Yanhua and Nashua had both been concerned for her. Lilliana had as well. And she assumed that Leilan had probably wondered about his fellow dragon-horse when he visited the Taiga.
Lilliana turns her head towards the trail that she had been traveling, indicating an invitation if Lethy wished it. "Want to tell me where you've been?"
light of love - florence + the machine
image credit to footybandit
but it's all in the past, love
it's all gone with the wind