06-20-2021, 06:50 PM
mazikeen
As she stands there, listening to Sabal recounting that night, Mazikeen’s legs tremble slightly. She knows she would tear the world apart if she had found her friend in a similar state but she cannot muster that same sense of caring when it comes to herself. Not when it feels more important to shelter others. So while Sabal isn’t saying anything she hasn’t already thought, she doesn’t reply with her thoughts. She doesn’t tell Sabal how glad she will be that her friend won’t find her next time she is bleeding or how much easier it will be knowing the kelpie won’t be around when Mazikeen is pregnant again this winter.
It feels so simple to her - the decisions she’s made to protect them - and yet the words to try to explain them won’t come. She listens to Sabal’s impassioned words but flinches away from the hope that tries to rise up in response to the encouragement she receives. It’s a dangerous thing to fight this battle with someone else. That’s how Wishbone was found, that’s why Sabal is being kicked out. Everyone who tries to help her is a pressure point to be used to cause her to crumble.
Her anger begins to slip away and the fiery markings on her skin fade as a result. Still Mazikeen stands there and doesn’t say anything at all when Sabal closes the gap between them, moving only to lean her head against the neck of her friend - breathing deep the water-fresh scent - and flinches slightly when she is told not to give up. She thinks she’s just learning to fight another way but maybe Sabal has seen through Mazikeen’s bullshit before she’s even aware that something about her actions stinks.
Still she doesn’t speak because she doesn’t trust her tongue to behave. Doesn’t trust it to not speak of secret plans and that withering hope inside of her that this will all turn out fine in the end. Doesn't want to tell Sabal how much she needs this friendship or how scared she truly is, even though she believes this is the right choice. If she speaks now, she thinks she might just tell Sabal that they’ll both go to Tephra - they’ll abandon Hyaline and then come back with force. That they’ll truly fight this together.
So instead she brushes her muzzle against the tear-soaked cheek of her friend, sister, and former champion and then watches as Sabal leaves Hyaline.
It feels so simple to her - the decisions she’s made to protect them - and yet the words to try to explain them won’t come. She listens to Sabal’s impassioned words but flinches away from the hope that tries to rise up in response to the encouragement she receives. It’s a dangerous thing to fight this battle with someone else. That’s how Wishbone was found, that’s why Sabal is being kicked out. Everyone who tries to help her is a pressure point to be used to cause her to crumble.
Her anger begins to slip away and the fiery markings on her skin fade as a result. Still Mazikeen stands there and doesn’t say anything at all when Sabal closes the gap between them, moving only to lean her head against the neck of her friend - breathing deep the water-fresh scent - and flinches slightly when she is told not to give up. She thinks she’s just learning to fight another way but maybe Sabal has seen through Mazikeen’s bullshit before she’s even aware that something about her actions stinks.
Still she doesn’t speak because she doesn’t trust her tongue to behave. Doesn’t trust it to not speak of secret plans and that withering hope inside of her that this will all turn out fine in the end. Doesn't want to tell Sabal how much she needs this friendship or how scared she truly is, even though she believes this is the right choice. If she speaks now, she thinks she might just tell Sabal that they’ll both go to Tephra - they’ll abandon Hyaline and then come back with force. That they’ll truly fight this together.
So instead she brushes her muzzle against the tear-soaked cheek of her friend, sister, and former champion and then watches as Sabal leaves Hyaline.
@[Sabal]
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this one is more about the shirt