03-04-2022, 10:05 AM
Beyza
Relief spreads through her when Ryatah arrives - whole and safe. It has not been long enough for Beyza to forget the ache and emptiness she had felt at losing one of her beloved parents and the visual reminder that Ryatah is here, back with the living where she belongs, is already a comfort even before the gap between them closes.
She feels small and young as Ryatah pulls her close and then teleports them away from the open chill of the air. Even when Beyza was a filly with too-big powers, she never felt helpless. They were always there to help her - she had not been very old at all the first time she brought Caledonia back to life and when she had first healed the radioactive mare. Her history is peppered with the rash decisions of someone born with too much power.
But this reliance on someone else, this strange vulnerability, does not bother her at all in this particular moment. If there was anyone in the world she felt comfortable enough to lean on, both literally and figuratively, with her energy and magic drained - it’s Ryatah. She welcomes the comforting warmth that spreads through her as she is held. “Just drained.” She’s quick to give reassurances, her voice soft and weary.
The shiver that runs through her now is not from the cold, and she inhales deeply before explaining. “I killed him. I killed Gale.” As she says this, Beyza pulls back to look at Ryatah’s face - worried about what her mom will think of this news. Gale had deserved to die but since murder is (generally) frowned upon she quickly offers up an explanation - as though she needs to convince the other mare that what she had done was for the best before any objection even has a chance to be raised. “Even though you’re back, I couldn’t forgive him for what he did. Couldn’t risk him hurting anyone else.”
This was nothing like the other murders she had committed, there is no remorse in her - but there hadn’t been any for her first either and she had been wrong then. What if she was again? She trusted Ryatah to let her know if her morals had strayed. Her mom had done it before, though it had been more indirect. Beyza's meeting of Este during the eclipse had put a fracture in the strange, twisted view Beyza had of her life and what she had done in it - that meeting had been the first event which then caused a chain reaction to put her where she was now, and Beyza believed she was so better for it.
She feels small and young as Ryatah pulls her close and then teleports them away from the open chill of the air. Even when Beyza was a filly with too-big powers, she never felt helpless. They were always there to help her - she had not been very old at all the first time she brought Caledonia back to life and when she had first healed the radioactive mare. Her history is peppered with the rash decisions of someone born with too much power.
But this reliance on someone else, this strange vulnerability, does not bother her at all in this particular moment. If there was anyone in the world she felt comfortable enough to lean on, both literally and figuratively, with her energy and magic drained - it’s Ryatah. She welcomes the comforting warmth that spreads through her as she is held. “Just drained.” She’s quick to give reassurances, her voice soft and weary.
The shiver that runs through her now is not from the cold, and she inhales deeply before explaining. “I killed him. I killed Gale.” As she says this, Beyza pulls back to look at Ryatah’s face - worried about what her mom will think of this news. Gale had deserved to die but since murder is (generally) frowned upon she quickly offers up an explanation - as though she needs to convince the other mare that what she had done was for the best before any objection even has a chance to be raised. “Even though you’re back, I couldn’t forgive him for what he did. Couldn’t risk him hurting anyone else.”
This was nothing like the other murders she had committed, there is no remorse in her - but there hadn’t been any for her first either and she had been wrong then. What if she was again? She trusted Ryatah to let her know if her morals had strayed. Her mom had done it before, though it had been more indirect. Beyza's meeting of Este during the eclipse had put a fracture in the strange, twisted view Beyza had of her life and what she had done in it - that meeting had been the first event which then caused a chain reaction to put her where she was now, and Beyza believed she was so better for it.
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