07-11-2016, 12:56 PM
Her heart was heavy, so incredibly heavy within her chest. It weighed her down more than she thought it would. She had avoided her family this last week or so since her Dad had made his announcement, since the Tundra had become a regular kingdom instead of just a Bachelor kingdom. She had especially avoided Nevi. She couldn't stand to see the happiness and hope in his eyes when her own was laying around her hooves in shatters.
She had moved away from the main places of the Tundra, where most of the residents gathered. She had shied away from the caves where she knew Nevi might find comfort and she had made sure to just hide in general. She wasn't ready to see them yet, no...not yet.
She was unable to even find beauty in the Tundra as she wanders through it. Summertime was in full swing. The grasses were tall enough to tickle her belly this far north, even if the wind still could have a bit of a bite in it. There were some flowers here and there, and she was sure she could even see some reindeer there ahead of her. But she looses herself more in her heavy heart. She's lost in the fact that she cannot leave here, now not when Nevi is the happiest she has ever seen him.
They had just made these plans....
Her heart hurts.
Even with all the heaviness, even with all the pain she holds inside she is able to mask it well. She had learned to never show it, never to show your fear or your pain even when you were bleeding to death inside. She never would. Nevi would never know the pain she felt over this. She would never show him how she still bled sometimes. While she was over being abandoned and being found, one really never forgets it.
And wasn't she such a hypocrite to not show him when he had shown her.
So her face is not blank, but it doesn't show her pain and she wanders until dark falls and she finds a cave that reminds her of that night before the Tundra had become more than just a stallion kingdom. She goes into it and lays down, settling into the darker parts that reminded her of Nevi. But she faces outwards, so she can see the faint twinkling of the stars on the horizon and she waits until morning, when she knows she should probably make her way back down to the more occupied part of the Tundra.
She had moved away from the main places of the Tundra, where most of the residents gathered. She had shied away from the caves where she knew Nevi might find comfort and she had made sure to just hide in general. She wasn't ready to see them yet, no...not yet.
She was unable to even find beauty in the Tundra as she wanders through it. Summertime was in full swing. The grasses were tall enough to tickle her belly this far north, even if the wind still could have a bit of a bite in it. There were some flowers here and there, and she was sure she could even see some reindeer there ahead of her. But she looses herself more in her heavy heart. She's lost in the fact that she cannot leave here, now not when Nevi is the happiest she has ever seen him.
They had just made these plans....
Her heart hurts.
Even with all the heaviness, even with all the pain she holds inside she is able to mask it well. She had learned to never show it, never to show your fear or your pain even when you were bleeding to death inside. She never would. Nevi would never know the pain she felt over this. She would never show him how she still bled sometimes. While she was over being abandoned and being found, one really never forgets it.
And wasn't she such a hypocrite to not show him when he had shown her.
So her face is not blank, but it doesn't show her pain and she wanders until dark falls and she finds a cave that reminds her of that night before the Tundra had become more than just a stallion kingdom. She goes into it and lays down, settling into the darker parts that reminded her of Nevi. But she faces outwards, so she can see the faint twinkling of the stars on the horizon and she waits until morning, when she knows she should probably make her way back down to the more occupied part of the Tundra.