05-04-2021, 08:39 PM
Mazikeen
The children that cold voice says and the lioness hesitates because she knows that she should, and she covers the instantaneous answer that comes to her with a scowl - because she knows she should do that too. Her skin does crawl at the implication, and Mazikeen does feel protective over the children but she has not grown to love them yet. She doesn’t know what they’ll be like, after all, and has not yet come to understand the nature of unconditional love.
In this moment, she does not see this as much of a choice at all - someone she loves over two mistakes. Innocent as they may be in all of this.
And she has no idea what Gale’s current thoughts are on the whole mess. She had thought that maybe he had been warming up to the idea of being a father, that he had been enjoying the changes her body was going through and what it meant, but now she doesn’t know if that was him at all. She had been warming to the idea, though she blames the babies for those thoughts - being a mother had not exactly been on her to do list until they arrived. And now Mazikeen wants a life where she and Gale are excited about the idea of being parents, where it could have happened when they were ready and chose it instead of being woefully uneducated on how everything worked and it happening at the worst possible time. She wants a life where these babies could meet their dozen or so cousins and grow up wild and free with two parents that love each other.
But she does not have that life and she will not get it. So on the subject of keeping this from Gale, she just scoffs quietly - though her indifferent tone is softened by a note of sadness she had not intended to leak out. That note is more honesty than this current conversation deserves. “Would he even care?” She supposes this thing living inside of Gale’s body and mind would know better than she does.
He would have once, she thinks, but is it different in this situation? Did he harbour the same unachievable dreams about a family? They hadn't wanted these twins so would he care if she gave them away? Or would he just feel relieved of the burden?
Not for the first time, Mazikeen wishes she possessed the ability to turn off her own thoughts. There are too many of them, she can barely sort out her own feelings never mind consider what Gale would think. There's no point in wishing they had been more open with each other because now she's aware that there's no way of knowing who she would've been talking to.
Her orange gaze has not moved from him as she considers this deal, and it's still an effort to see this as Something Else and not Gale. Mazikeen wants to agree but the terms are still too vague - she’s asked for Gale, but does not know how that will be interpreted. And it feels important, when bargaining with her unborn children with a curse that’s possessing someone she loves, to be as specific as possible. She sighs, her black-tipped tail curling around her paws, and the glow illuminating her has not dimmed. She'll never not be angry about this.
When she finally replies, her scowl has turned into a frown and it's clear she's trying to sort this all out. “What exactly will I get if I give you both of them? Will you leave us alone until they arrive and you can take them?” Mazikeen doesn’t know how she’d even be able to trust that the curse is well and truly dormant but that will be a problem to face if the deal is made.
In this moment, she does not see this as much of a choice at all - someone she loves over two mistakes. Innocent as they may be in all of this.
And she has no idea what Gale’s current thoughts are on the whole mess. She had thought that maybe he had been warming up to the idea of being a father, that he had been enjoying the changes her body was going through and what it meant, but now she doesn’t know if that was him at all. She had been warming to the idea, though she blames the babies for those thoughts - being a mother had not exactly been on her to do list until they arrived. And now Mazikeen wants a life where she and Gale are excited about the idea of being parents, where it could have happened when they were ready and chose it instead of being woefully uneducated on how everything worked and it happening at the worst possible time. She wants a life where these babies could meet their dozen or so cousins and grow up wild and free with two parents that love each other.
But she does not have that life and she will not get it. So on the subject of keeping this from Gale, she just scoffs quietly - though her indifferent tone is softened by a note of sadness she had not intended to leak out. That note is more honesty than this current conversation deserves. “Would he even care?” She supposes this thing living inside of Gale’s body and mind would know better than she does.
He would have once, she thinks, but is it different in this situation? Did he harbour the same unachievable dreams about a family? They hadn't wanted these twins so would he care if she gave them away? Or would he just feel relieved of the burden?
Not for the first time, Mazikeen wishes she possessed the ability to turn off her own thoughts. There are too many of them, she can barely sort out her own feelings never mind consider what Gale would think. There's no point in wishing they had been more open with each other because now she's aware that there's no way of knowing who she would've been talking to.
Her orange gaze has not moved from him as she considers this deal, and it's still an effort to see this as Something Else and not Gale. Mazikeen wants to agree but the terms are still too vague - she’s asked for Gale, but does not know how that will be interpreted. And it feels important, when bargaining with her unborn children with a curse that’s possessing someone she loves, to be as specific as possible. She sighs, her black-tipped tail curling around her paws, and the glow illuminating her has not dimmed. She'll never not be angry about this.
When she finally replies, her scowl has turned into a frown and it's clear she's trying to sort this all out. “What exactly will I get if I give you both of them? Will you leave us alone until they arrive and you can take them?” Mazikeen doesn’t know how she’d even be able to trust that the curse is well and truly dormant but that will be a problem to face if the deal is made.
@[Gale]