What exactly does she feel for him? Months on, she still isn’t certain. He drives her crazy at times, with his sassy remarks and backhanded compliments on her ass. But on other occasions he can be so sweet, so caring. Like when he first offered her a home in Ischia. She feels a definite, even strong, affection, but is it love? She does not know. She knows so little of the concept (that is, romantic love) to truly understand. And while she’s certain he at least feels affection for her in return, she dares not consider the potential depth of his feelings for her. Lately though, he has seemed rather preoccupied. He still visits her on occasion, but his mind seems far away. She hasn’t pressed him on it. He is his own stallion, and despite her own uncertain feelings, she at least knows he does not belong to her. She is far too old to have any illusions on her ‘claim’ to him. Her children though … her children are hers forever. She hadn’t intended on getting pregnant. Despite the passage of years Lestrade’s loss is still too recent, still too fresh. But on one, heated night, one thing had lead to another … But she doesn’t regret it, though she hadn’t intended it to happen. She’s loved every one of her children, and she will love this one just the same. She’s even started looking forward to it, in spite of herself. She hasn’t had a little one to look after in years. She’s still musing over what the coming months will bring, when that oh-so-familiar scent floats reaches her nose. She turns, and smiles instantly at the sight of the buckskin stallion. But the smile is short lived, her eyes narrow and lips draw together in concern at the sight of the morose expression on Ashley’s face. Normally she would have chided him, but something in his face gives her pause. “What's troubling you?” |
Ugh I struggled with this post so much. I'm sorry it's so awful D: